Why is it that stories
with "dying" themes amaze me the most? I love it when I shed tears in
reading those inspiring (yet they're still fiction) tittle-tattles.
After Tuesdays with
Morrie, I just finished reading one comparable with the book. It is entitled
"101 Reasons" written by Bianca (bien_021). I suggest you read it too
'coz it never failed me. ☺
I guess I have to
post this article made by James (Ann's brother) because it re-lived my ‘somewhat-writer-to-be-dream’.
Anyway, the passage is a part in the story.
The Flight of the Mockingbird
Someone once asked me what it feels
like to be in heaven. I never had the slightest idea what to tell her.
So I waited until my mom and dad tell
it to her. When it was my turn to speak all eyes are directed at me, and her
look was the one that made me say something, something that would not
disappoint her.
“In heaven you can fly.” She might
not say it out loud, but I think my answer amazes her the most.
When I first found out that she’ll
soon leave me, I feel hatred, betrayal. I was beyond mad, of all people who
committed heavier crimes it is me who is faced with this kind of trial.
It hurts just to see her lie down the
hospital bed, even if I know she’s only sleeping, every day I blame God. Every
day I blame Him for making her suffer. I hated Him and even wished to take me
with her.
Then I met her nurse, funny how the
first moment I saw her is the same moment that I knew my life will change
forever.
It did.
She taught me how to accept
everything, to not only think of myself but mostly think of how my sister is
feeling. Every day I try to forgive my Him, and every day that I try I feel
lighter.
Still there’s that pain in my heart
that no matter how hard I try, it will still be buried there. So every night I
talk to him, begging Him not to take the pain away but to make me able to
handle the pain.
I know that my sister is reading this
article now and the next thing I know loads of it are already posted in our
house just to mock me. I know she’s a pain in the as$ but please if you’re
going to take her now, or any time soon. Please give me the courage to accept
it and give me the wisdom not to blame you in the process.
That was a tragic ending. The article of James, shows the reality of how some people view God's plan in unacceptable way. It portrays God as unfair. But the truth is, He is not. Sometimes, we may not understand all His plans, but He wants us to trust him. After all, He is God. He knows what he's doing. :)
ReplyDeleteNice post Jenica! :)